Hada Labo...SAVE MEEE!

Went to the local Mitsuwa to get some skincare products. I heard raves about the Hada Labo Shirojyun Milk ($14.99)..so I bought it to try! (it's the blue label one)

The one next to it is the Shirojun Moisturizer ($17.49)...I hope after using them my skin will return to NORMAL.
For some reason LA weather has been very dry...Usually I have normal acne-controlled skin..but not anymore!! Thanks to this harsh Murad T-Zone Pore Gel (wtvr..) product...which ITCHED |STUNG | BURNED when I applied it onto my T-zone area..

The next morning..my tzone area broke out...with acne/pimples...

THE WORKS.

This is quite upsetting...For people who have normal nice looking skin...to break out in hives overnight feels like the end of the WORLD.
(of course there are larger worldly profound issues to worry about..but IT SURE FEELS THAT WAY)

but I did not despair....right now my face isn't breaking out anymore..I resolve to not use anymore neutrogena, clean and clear, or cetaphil products coz it's too much for my face...sticking with Asian brands from now on...
:(
Hopefully my beautiful face can come back to me!!

and lately LA's weather has become increasingly dry...a few of my friends who NEVER broke out DID, and some others who already have problems went from a level 2 to 6...

UGH!! Must fix!

right now i'm using aveeno...no more olay for me either...it STINGS my facial skin! perfect for hands though...
my mom keeps insisting that my skin will just adapt to the lotion...
WRONG. NEVER DID. NEVER WILL.
of coz..i gave all the products i can't use to her...
which WILL include the unopened Neturogena facial cleanser...fresh from Amazon LLC lol ..

update

i told myself:

no email for 2 days

now i'm checking it and there's a LOT of catching up to do.

lesson: NEVER stall

Too many time sensitive info!

Alrights. back home.

and already scheduling hangout dates :)
oh yeah. this winter break ima make it special and amazing...

for myself.

duh .
no use wallowing in despair and being negative. :)

my dear friends Casey and Kevin, I'll see you next year!  ;) I'll never forget our awesome day at Santa Monica!! 

updattee

FINALs are DONE for me.

AYYYYYYYYY

i know i def got C and higher for all my classes, def 2 classes have As...the rest...is really ?!!??! bc of late submitted assignments ...and late to class...and skip cla...

O WTVR. i'm just hoping that i effing pass my classes ..don't care about honors...if something's not my forte, why force it ..so hard? 

when you can work on something that you are just...  extremely talented at? 

so it's like ...i used to do this: OMG MY MATH IS BAD. then work on math math math and neglect other subjects...my writing skills plummeted. 

then i work on writing , then fail math but amazing in writing...

kinda like that. but now that i'm in college. i choose to concentrate on music. why stress so hard on other subjects when there is one subject that comes back over and over, never leaves you ..it's so LIKE fate. (didn't say it is. i said it's LIKE) 

so i posted this up on fb too: 

hAHAHHA! 

i didn't know I look like Cho Hyun-young from Rainbow! crazy... 

link for YOU to find out if you look like a korean celeb...i know it's been out for HELLA long but you'll be surprised how different you change and the matches they put out for u

alright. going back home in a few hours! excited? not really..it's cold dark and gloomy in comparison to the nice nice nice weather in LA ;( 

toodles

-JT

update! awesome performance!

yes. i'm still UP.
omg i hate being up at this late hour...that means i will wake up late tmw...and will barely have time to study what i really need to study...

but done with a performance! YAYY!

(that's what i was in! University Chorus! yay)


too bad i dont have ANY pictures during performance coz i DIDNT BRING A CAMERA and nobody has like.. pictures loaded up on fb so i cant even show yall how AMAZING that was!

HOWEVER, i do have BB uploads of rehearsal time! :)

 this was during the rehearsal of the violin + viola concerto :) the stradivarius was USED! yay! i have never sat this close to watch a rehearsal/performance before! so cool:) 

this is from where i am standing in the chorus :) well.. the girl with curly hair is the first row, i am on the 2nd! ..see the empty seats? we were rehearsing noon time on sat!!! 

despite having the 'scare' from professor neuen that we only sold 935 tickets for a 1800 seater venue at Royce Hall, we managed to get FULL HOUSE tonight! thank you for all the supporters! my professor and ta were so hAPPY that they shook my hand afterwards and both nearly teared up bc of the performance =_=;

(i was kinda shocked coz i never expected the professor to take my hand and shake it just like that ...father to daughter style, and didnt expect the ta to hug me and exclaim her happiness either)

...and the fact that out of 150 chorus performers ..they did jsut that...

what sucks is ...THEY DON"T EVEN REMEMBER MY NAME JUST MY FACE.. sucks =_=

well...music of the ...morning? I'm still in classical mode right now, so listening to

"Laudamus Te" from Mozart's mass in c minor

well...this soprano is a bit... strong, i guess tonight's soloist was a bit more sweeter* ;) but nonetheless one of the better recordings i can find on youtube!
*=open for anyone's interpretation

o. yeah. and about the performance on thursday...it was good, but not great. i guess i expected a higher standard for myself when i perform chinese music instruments...and what happened that day was INEXCUSABLE for me. basically ... i made a mistake during the performance of bringing only half the score to perform ...although i was called on last min to perform with a diff ensemble (literally...) i couldn't believe I LEFT HALF MY SCORE IN MY LOCKER. it was something new and a hard lesson learned...

lesson: memorize music....

update! performing!

another performance today!
i'll be performing the MOZART GRAND MASS in C MINOR! that's the beginning -->kyrie ..one of my fav recordings



ima break a leg (figuratively for that ) hahha

but what sucks is, i'll be standing there 1/2 straight singing... and i realized i dont have any flats.. other than blue SANDALS... (think choir dress with blue sandals..>)
um...

and i dont want to stand in heels coz i got blisters from standing with them 2 days ago...
EFFFF!!!
i WILL HAVE TO STAND WITH HEELS AGAIN!

look pretty, feels ugly

alright rehearsal now

my ugly face.

I have given up.

On my eyes.

By the 5th week of every quarter, my eyes puff up

By the 7th week of every quarter, my eyes feel like it's been socked ...

By the 9th week of every quarter, my eyes are puffy, dark, red, and SOCKED.

yeah... puffy terrible eyes..of coz hidden by innocent study-glasses

My only salvation is using makeup for coverage, but I don't even have time to do what I need to do, so what I "want" to do will have to hold off.

but when I have my make up on...different story, U CAN't REALLY tell huh? o wait..i dont think u know that it is the same person

and i tied my bangs up bc it's getting too long..i'll have to trim them soon hahah

Also, I have been practicing my Ruan enough that my pinky knuckles are in pain every time i  move them...2 days ago i had blisters on each finger =_=..which i can't pop but wait for it to harden to calluses..(as you can tell...i have not practiced for a while and then got back to it just saturday..)
and now typing...pain.. but it's worth it.

GOING HOME on thanksgiving! Can't wait yayy~
EDIT: I don't want to go home anymore...it's freezing cold. dipping to low 33 degrees and highest 53 ish?!... COLD COLD COLD! and it's cold in LA enough! and think of all those people standing outside just for black friday...
sigh...

MEET MR. and MRS. Whaley!

Hello!
Please meet Mr. and Mrs. Whaley. (I know they are from Dr. Suess and what not but I NAMED them Mr. and Mrs. so please DON'T HATE)
I got them from Kohls in Alameda Towne Center (called...Southshore before..can't believe they change that...) coz it was for a children's fund and I was thinking
 I get to do something nice. and it's only $5 EACH!

Mr. and Mrs. Whaley's is comfortable sitting at home chilling and waiting for me to come back during Thanksgiving! YAY! I CAN'T WAIT! :)

Today was a pleasant friday: saw my friend who graduated, and group buddies from HKSS (hong kong student society), they're hilarious!

Listening to  庐州月- 许嵩  I have been into the R&B/Chink-ed out scene for a while, and this is a perfect example. Soothing voice and meaningful lyrics. :) I am feeling the song. brings me back memories I have had suppressed for a long time.



Enjoy and toodles!

MY LIFE UPDATED

Lupe Fiasco - The Show Goes On. 

The song speaks to me. I nearly teared up listening to the lyrics. 

Yeah. The song is sampled. but Songs have been sampled ever since... i mean..western music has 12 semitones...using the semitones are against the law coz we'll be sampling the frequency of the wavelength associated? maybe i'll just make it slightly out of tune (HARRY PARTCH STYLE) so it'll be total 'originality'

Good stuff good stuff 

Lately I'm going through another emotional roller coaster. Sorry to my friends that I blew up on. The Devil made me do it...or you deserved it ...wtvr. just sorry it wasn't anyone else but me that had to tell you the truth. 

so now tonight is a beautiful Sunday! I am in pain (physical) but that's ok! I am drinking Pepsi coz I haven't ate the whole day, and reading about classical Indian Raga right now...good stuff <3 it

Tmw's going to be another awesome day...a QUIZ. study. more study. I'm really just waiting for next Saturday? ;) 

beginning of the qtr

Ever have an overwhelmed feeling at the start of a project or academic qtr? I am going through this right now.

I planned out my study list and courses for the qtr, but I don't feel very rigid right now.

like:

Result = class 1 + class 2 + class 3 + performance class 1 + P. Class 2 + student leader duty + X

that X can be ANYTHING.

X may be (2*drama), X may be (10* extra work study ), or X may be (picking up slack for other people) ....

X MAY be an ADDITION OF ALL OF THE ABOVE.

I am not feeling good about this qtr AT ALL.

and I better do well in these classes. I like the topics in these classes...so I should be ..fine?

first day of schoolll

the past month had been sleepless nights.

while all the OTHER kiddies/undergrads are superexcited about getting back to school (horray), my team here is working hard to make their living in the residential halls an amazing year.

already, i have met amazing people...such as these awesome roommates a summer session prior to my first year (yes...u can be in college the summer before college official starts as a freshie) 

so i wanted to make this year an amazing year with awesome people around me. 

so. meet my team everyone ;)

although i've got to say...i don't know each and everyone personally, but they all bring forth so much when teamwork is required, that sometimes, guiltily, i feel like as long as you get ur job done, we don't have to interfere with each other's personal lives...unless u want..ur DRAMA to become ours.

and i like that. i like how i dont have to tell them every snippet of my life...not like they know my life anyways...1) they don't know i have this BLOG. DUGHHFIEU#($)#$

but with every "corporate" team comes with OL drama...well, school just started and the soup's brewing. very mild though...idk who'll be adding spices later...but it's NOT GONNA BE ME I SWEAR.

i'm low key. ;)

well WOO HOOO FIRST DAY OF SCHOOLLL TODAY!!!

i'm prepared for 6 hours of

yap yap yap

from professors...if i have time i'll teach the "perfect zone out mode" -->aka

sleep during class

until then

-Jes

update: boards!

tired...less than 4 hours of sleep every night for the past week ;(

and tonight is not gonna get any better!!! I didn't know preparing to take care of residents will be this intense and tiring!!!

with all my <3, blood, sweat, and tears, I present to you one of the sign boards in my building I have been working in the wee hours on

just with these utensils

I still need to design the other board!!! anticipate! and it has to be done tmw ;(

japanese commercials!

<3 the commercials !!
esp the shiseido and docomo ones ;)

update

for the many first times,

i finally realized i m actually appreciated by the little things i do for them.

and i can say things without fear

and be very productive yet having so. much. fun.

thank you ucla orl ;)

and...
i really miss my summer roommates cristal and misha
there are so many things, memories, hobbies we share ;) my first time talking about culture differences, problems with society, sustainability, etc <3 them

;) :]

tired from training today.

i was so tired... from doing something like this:

Sunset Canyon's Ropes Challenge Course . 


sorry, i didn't have pictures....but if u just google that..u'll find hella images...


and i'm tired. ..from having to be all professionally in front of people and :) : ) :)  
at them! ahh! and i'm living with the people i'm living with through the year...so i have to be courteous. 
and damn i do a good job. 
i try. 


i dont want to have my faults discovered so..soon..


o wait. there's MORE. i get the WEEKEND OFF to cram my 2 finals...!!!! fuck. life sucks doesnt it. i have to get this done by monday because i have camp on tues to wed... GAHHH!!!! 

update! red green show!

had a Red Green Show Marathon!! SO FUNNY OMG
(filled with political undertones though, but can be seen without knowing much of it)
it's canadian based
the episode that i can't stop laughing is

DANG it was

hilarious

esp. with the Harold in the tent HAHAHAHHAHA


driving to LA tonight... and have to think of getting food, reading this 300 page book!
:)
hope yall summers going well!

update: TOK TOK TOK

So I was on QQ音乐 listening to my playlist...

then I saw Tok Tok Tok - Super Junior on the New Songs list

I clicked it. Put on my Headphones thinking it might be some kind of R&B/Pop song

Then I hear pentatonic scales, Trot style (Korean Pop Music developed around WWII)
Sounds like the Enka style in Japan but I don't know if it's developed in parallel with one another.
(UCLA needs a Music of Japan professor pronto..)

I 2xed checked my playlist...

Then no...I heard the reassurance of "Tok Tok Tok"

and it sure sounds like Super Junior ...

Wait. my mistake. Super Junior-T, the second sub-unit of SJ.
more info: click the wiki here!



Now! I don't feel bad liking traditional music! smug* For ya'll that laugh at me for being all old fashioned, watched the tables turn and you'll be faced with this counter-revolution of retro style songs hohoho~

update

I like the bay area weather being cloudy and foggy...in comparision to the HOT weather in LA.

However. i've been having dry eyes, itchy nose and throat, rapid sneezeing..ever since i got back home.

I have to always either 1) drink water 2) thoat drops/gum 3) eat something
to prevent a itchy throat

and put Rhoto drops every night before I sleep.

AIII!!! ;(

Mom says I"m not used to the weather here...I lived too long in LA and my body's not adjusting. Wow. that just gives her an excuse to not send me anywhere else out of the states coz my body cant handle different weather.

Alright. toodles. I didn't check fb or turned on my phone for a while and i'm too lazy to check it today..maybe tmw ;)

update. lifeless me =_+

for the past few days I was definitely feeling, as how my mom defines it: lifeless.

I didn't feel like doing any studying, eating, exercising, answering texts or calls...

Just being a so called "innocent bitch"
- doing things that i'm harming myself in and hurting others as well...

I REALIZED WHY. IREALIZED WHY

Like how the conversation went between Nodame Cantabile's Maestro Franz Streseman and Chaiki Shinichi:

Shinichi: Please, stop drinking and indulging in women so much, and live long.

Streseman: (smiles wryly) However, without drinking, women, and music, I die.

THAT WAS SO BASED ON MEMORY COZ I am lazy to find that part, it was in the episode after both their performances together and they were tired lying on different sofas talking.

I think that's how I am in ways as well...minus the drinking and women of coz. ..and the death part.
For without music, I limp and breathe without ambition. I am lifeless.

I realized I practice, I sing, I dance to relieve myself from becoming lifeless...
When I feel lifeless I feel..fatigued, tired, don't want to do homework, procrastination 10x best.

Amazing.

Now I know how to get my body recharged. WOOOOOOOOOO~ so happy

and sometimes...i wonder if this may be rather a curse than a blessing hmm

and now i'm super energetic. i woke up early to see the DJI tumbling down around 141 points lowest and then recharged a bit...

... damn why am i even looking at the stock market anymore! i gave up business years ago! puhuhuh

update

mini update right now coz i'm  about to "sleep"
basically i've been nocturnal: sleeping at 4am and waking up at 1pm

so i have to fix this craziness and start waking up early and sleeping early.

gah.

after replyiing fb walls i'm juust @_@ right now

now i [sort of] understand how it feels when girls rush up to guys and say "sign my yearbook!"
the guy takes a look at the yearbook and prays that others would have taken up most of the yearbook page space so he can just write "happy graduation! - "insert name and date" TOO BAD. yearbook has plenty of pages empty and others seemed to have written 1/2 page of wish-wells
ARGH. there's a implicit minimum space requirement on this! sad sad sad

my point is:  ...i totally forgot what i wrote that for..maybe tmw i can look at that and go...oh yeah, it was written bc of...___ and ___.

coz i'm just so pinheaded right now! woo

alright toodles ~ i really don't feel like editing pictures right now...maybe tmw after i feel like i've done something purposeful!

update + super junior

@ the alameda free library trying to dl my online lecs ;(
sigh i just dont like home internet...i cant even stream the first lecture AHHHHHHH

but then i have to hurry here as well coz i have to find parking to park my car later...ppl usually come back around 6pm ...less than 2 hours...i can do this !



No one: Super junior ;)

like the beat/ lyrics


all right toodles!