light headed blogging

So I slept late last night because I was trying to send this group email out to my group members in this project due upcoming tuesday. Apparently, life stinks because I send the email not once but TWICE. I even wrote the content differently for both...and I was going to wake up this early to resend it again.

Stupid UCLA webmail...If my friend/member did not reply to my email (what was she doing up all night?!) I wouldn't have known it was even sent. That email wasn't even archived into my SENT MAIL FOLDER. How am I suppose to know sent or not ar! SO ANGRY

Now all my group members are probably like....why she sent 2 emails with different contents in them... so weird.

My skin is starting to break out again...I CAN FEEL IT. its dry, itchy everywhere! + I ran out of lotion/emulsion...none of them left. and of course mom will not buy me more lotion she thinks i'm crazy but I REALLY DO NEED IT....

ok that's it for now it is around 645 am and need to eat + class ttul

quick note

will update later today! psh and I wasn't even busy from studying ;[

but yes, what has been bugging me lately:
and i'm not even bothering to check grammar (like...i ever do?)

ok ... so professors that pissed the hell out of Jessica Tang(from hereon refer as ME or I...not YOU)

...or i think is funny must share with you

math 31b professor: this guy(the professor) will ask a math question to the class, and no one responds cuz it's 9:30 in the morning (EARLY). then he gets frustrated and doesn't continue the lecture until SOMEBODY answers. so SOMEBODY got to whip their calculator and their brains out for the class to continue. One time he got so bored he was tying his shoes in front of the class while somebody computes for the answer.
Plus I thought math is an universal language!? he writes 9 like g. seriously. For the first FIVE WEEKS(I..really should've got it in the first week...but i dont even go to his class sometimes cuz i think it's a waste of time) I have no idea that g meant 9...IT MAY AS WELL BE A VARIABLE. what he can confuse students by writing g and 9..mix them up...

A&0 1: I skipped 2 weeks of his class...until I realized I dont really get how to do his(also professor!) hw and it's not mentioned on the lec slides posted on his dept site. This guy is cool but he just...USES SO MUCH BIG VOCAB!!? ThAT SOO DETERRED me from frequenting his class...Even in his slides...He would use "gyres" in one of his slides. WHY don't just put WHIRL!?! I not a A&0 person...I can't read beyond simple english..;[

Yeah..interesting professors but I don't hate them don't get me wrong. If I really do why am I killing myself for 8 more weeks..crazy. Yeah. just in case my professors are nosy and end up googling their class titles and names during their spare time checking to see if anything good/bad comes up, I WRITE GOOD THINGS I PROMISE! if all u see here about yourself are all bad , your eyes need to get checked!

It's not me. It's you.

What else need to get updated. O. Just the same people. WHAT THE FUCK got called a bitch cuz i rolled my eyes at this one girl that YAPP YAPP YAP with her friend for the WHOLE HR of lec then ask me for paper(for a pop quiz in lec) like-she-did-not-even-know-she-was-fcking-annoying. LOL. All I got to say is: she's damn frustrated when I just stared at her funny. I just think she's purely shameless. I forgot these people DO EXIST. Gosh just got reality check ok


grr. what was a quick note turned into mini essay...;[ ok i get back to studying;[

UPDATE UPDATE! so important must have caps to begin

So lately, many of my friends on Facebook seemed to have created their own blogs via Blogspot. I suppose that is pretty cool, but I have been on this blog for...4 years already. Can't beat that ;]

Well. I lost my inspiration to blog lately. I think it's because I needed a break. I grew lazy editing my pictures, I supposed I feel a lot more self-conscious nowadays since I am in college and I have to show my face everyday to the public. UGH.

I suppose I needed time to study for my classes. For the past 2 weeks I was tired, and consistently slept... for more than 12 hours per day. For this week, I have skipped 2 lectures and 3 sections. Ok ..maybe skipping one more today. ;[

UGH. such a terrible student here.

I wonder if people are still reading this blog since I never updated it ;d I do not feel like publicizing this blog like I used to...I don't feel the need to anyways! People will come and read if they find my stuff funny! And also because...I don't like following such trends. I do not like being grouped into those newbies who just started their blog and needs publicity. I feel that as an old(but still amateur) blogger does not need to sell my blog with such desperation.

Ok . enough of my emo and sad shit.

WELCOME TO MY BLOG!!!
FROM NOW ON. WHAT I SAY HERE is purely 100% Jessica Tang :d

Ok. I feel so bimbotic nowadays. I have been obsessed in putting arcrylic crystals/rhinestones...whatever that is blue or silver or white and shiny on my personal belongings! I have already started on my camera. Will show in next post. It makes me happy just looking at it...I'm so crazy. I want to put it on my whitebook (the white macbook), but since I am buying myself a new one during the summer, I am giving the mac to my brother anyways...his Sony vaio...is BEYOND REPAIR)

I am so proud of my whitebook. I bought it in 2006...still running strong! can still last forever! Usually all my PCS are...broken.. in a YEAR. I bought the BenQ joybook s61...when it first came out in Hong Kong

http://www.notebookcheck.net/Review-BenQ-Joybook-S61.1606.0.html

have link there if you want to look. That piece of junk broke down in a year. I could not even get it fixed since I got back to the states and my mother did not want to trouble herself with all that mess. That laptop was ...almost double the price of my macbook!

Reason I want a new Macbook is because of the new Snow Leapord updated OS coming out! I have been dying to use! Also...I could not run all the newer applications on my this Tiger (I KNOW...), I REALLY REALLY hate when I wanted to dl an application, then a window pops out stating I could not download because it is not COMPATIBLE.

So stupid.

I need an external harddrive too. Am looking through Amazon...but usually the prices are jacked up...and its hard for me to find good deals.

ok enough with my ramblings. Will DEF. post [psed] pics SOON. YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED. If you want to see the current ugly me. must look at update post lor.

hw

So lately, my school life is ok.
But my personal life is pretty turbulent.

I am hating where I am living at.
Let me tell you. Don't get random roommates unless you have no choice. Don't tell me I did not warn u! Of a verbal survey I have done. The possibly of having a satisfying dorming experience with a random person is close to 30% to none.

During summer 2008, I dormed at Rieber Vista, and it was very fun. I loved my roommates dearly, and we still keep in touch! (I just ate with my old roommie for breakfast today) So not all random roommates are bad. It's just whether you get lucky or not.

I thought I was pretty lucky. NOT.

ok. Enough of venting. I was told one week ago I have a performance today at the Tom Bradley International Center (It's right next to the dorm/Dykstra) Heck. I had to learn two new pieces and be able to perform it on stage. I figured I will mess up so much, I did not tell anyone I am performing today, nor did I bother getting tickets for anyone to show support. HAHAHA. I have done this since middle school. X_X

I would love to load some pictures up, but I am too tired! I promise I'll load up something nice and it won't be a disorganized blog post like this! I just want to get my thoughts out since I can't really do so in the uncomfortableness in my dorm. (shows how restricted and confined I am right now)

I am tired because I FINISHED WATCHING PI LI MIT (a Taiwanese Drama) on youku . com! SO HAPPY! WHOLE DRAMA FIN! I watched the DVD version since the TV version was quite slow. I love the internet ;D I love the asian websites. I feel so gifted in knowing another language! YESSSSSSSS

never heard of Pi li mit? I am terrible with summaries(I sound like those writers in fanfiction.net where they go 'I am not good with summaries but...)but here's my take on it.

So it's about 5 students who go to this very smart elite school, and they are presented with mysterious cases, which are called "games" and they solve a mystery per episode. Their advisor is Miss Cherry, and the students are code named 007, 187, 747, tian muo xing(forgive my pin yin SUCKS ASS) 007 is the genius of the group; his father was this really smart guy who wrote books about his own cases and mysteries. 187 is this flirtatious guy, who uses his looks to woo girls (and in some instances guys) to attain information to solve the case. 747 loves to be the "Hero"; and can hear very far away (helpful in knowing if there's eavesdroppers) tian muo xing is the only girl in the group of students, she also helps solve cases, usually by helping 007. Together, their group is called pi li MIT.

So. There's romance, comedy, definitely suspense. I liked it so much I did not even dare skip an episode! :D

ok. enough of my craziness. I go like..hw?!

Celebrity Collage by MyHeritage

Just to satisfy my curiosity, I put my face on myheritage.com and see who I look like. I thought by doing that at least I can see what their style is and what looks good on me.
Results:

MyHeritage: Celebrity Collage - Family tree chart - Free family tree maker
That's me without makeup at 1 AM.
I look. SO. U.G.L.Y.
No wonder people don't comment on this picture on facebook! (it's my profile pic even!) I look so ugly people rather not write anything!
Oh. Well. Who cares, you're the ones disgusted, (SUCKERS HEHEH)

Getting back onto topic...
They are too pretty. SHIT. Are. You. Serious. Ayumi Hamasaki?! I bet every girl happens to look like her somehow; she's got 343437 different looks and hairstyles.

She's so pretty, that's why I surprised! ha. ha. ha.

I remembered my three buddies at UCLA compared me to a composite of two girls they know from their high school. They said one girl is very pretty, while the other is "the nerdy counterpart" of me. (I wear glasses a lot) So that makes me = average. THANKS.

At least I'm not below average.

My high school friend told me "there's no such thing as ugly woman, but there is lazy woman" (translated literally from Chinese) I suppose so. Nowadays women can do cosmetic/plastic surgery to beautify their face/body. That being said, I want botox on my cheeks to add firmnes and to plump my lips, surgery on my nose to make it straight...
But of course, there's always make up to enhance(disguise) a face. I choose the latter of course! POOR COLLEGE STUDENT MEH!

o well. A good eye opener nonetheless.

back for now

So.
I'm back.

for a few reasons

1) when I google myself, my blog isn't top 5 anymore! So pissed off ah! There's some other Jessica Tangs out there, and I don't even know where they came from!

2) To challenge myself. I didn't write for a while, so my academic english stinks! I do write/type a lot, but facebook isn't helping me too much...

3) A good chance for my younger bro to write. There will be appearances from him time to time.

Now, updates about me.
When I last blogged, I believed I was a junior/senior year of high school (?) I don't remember anymore, that was ages (literally) ago. I was on a hiatus for a while mainly to sulk about my declining popularity. Maybe it has to be my ugly face and I need botox or something.

Now, I am a college freshman studying at UCLA!!!!!!!!!!! U C L A fight fight fight!
It's still a wonder how I got into UCLA (as well as other schools...), and I'm so grateful! That was my highlight of my senior year high school amid all that other drama and shit happening.

Now that HIGH SCHOOL was a past, I get copious(my favorite word..) amounts of FREEDOM to blog about ANYTHING I WANT, without my parents grilling me about what I do during my spare time. Gosh. O now you're curious?
MY BREAKDOWN IN COLLEGE WEEKDAYS:
8-5pm -lectures and between lectures: SLEEP.
6:30 - eat with friends.
7-10 - facebook/crunchyroll/mysoju/youtube/aim
10-12 - Shower, eat...sleep

I don't really study by the way, I study by sitting/staring during lectures. (absorb about 40% material...follow at your own risk)

Also, I am glad that nobody really frequents this site anymore, so I can leave mistakes lying around and nobody bother pinpointing them! (such as that 5-6:30 gap above) I won't bother checking for grammar mistakes bc I just too lazy to!

Right now, I am at my home sweet home in the Bay Area. Going back to UCLA in 2 weeks. New QTR. More ways to FAIL, and of course COPIOUS amounts of NEWFOUNDFREEDOM!



old pic...it should be last years. Eating Pad Thai at SF. I feel that I have to put a pic up or the blog would be VERY BORING.

Some survey from Myspace.

This was originally titled "Love Survey". WOW.
What kind of love, and how deep does it get?
hmmm.

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. tshirt
2. pj pants

that was easy...

Love Survey
You must answer every question 100% TRUTHFULLY!
(the cliche tag line. who in the world ever answers it 100%?!)

[01] Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
yeah.

[02]Have you ever gotten roses?
yeah. 8th grade grad. (hate the thorns, hate the floral smell...yeah i'm a flower hater)

[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
some chinese drama. ok. would Full House work?

[04] How many times have you honestly been in love?
wtfreak. it's getting deep... once?

[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
sure.

[06] Have you had your heart broken?
I dont even know how that feels. No.

[07]When was the last time u cried?
Just yesterday over something stupid.

[8] Your thoughts on online or long distance relationships.
I have heard pretty good online/long distance relationships. But they are far too few. Long distance relationships would work...if they are...(like the previous survey taker Emily wrote) committed. Pretty rare, yet beautiful.

[9] Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
damn. speaking of I dont get this question... Yes? He was my friend before we became more than friends...

[10] Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
Hopefully some person would have enough power to change the cheater. No. But I know not to mess around them.

[11] How many kids do you want to have?
I hate this question. He wants 5...!

[12] What is your favorite color(s)?
blue, silver, white.

[13] What are your views on gay marriage?
Give them the freaking right to marry already. Women have come a long way and have successfully gotten their rights. Gay people have their right on this say too. It may be now that are not accepted into society, but to younger generations, this is bound to change some time in the future. Kids nowadays are more tolerant than before.

[14] do you believe you have only one true love?
damn. hard one. I think so. There maybe other petty loves out there that you'd say "I love him", but there's one person out there that you feel damn right special to be with.

[15] Imagine you're 79 & your spouse just died, would you re-marry?
79 is a bit too old for ..remarrying would it?

[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
uh. since kindergarden? They do have shorter hair then girls. And are a lot more...well, rebellious.

[17] What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
Cliche Canon in D. Played by my fellow orchestra members [crew!!]

[18] Do you Know someone who likes you? Do u like them back?
Him.

[19] Do you like anyone?
Him. Trying to test me!?

[20] Do you think they know that you like them?
He better be telling the truth when he told me those 3 words... He'll be fried if he's lying.

When you are finished repost this as: L0VE SURVEY

I suppose the middle questions were the worst to answer. I wish I were to go philosophical and can answer them with depth, but my STOMACHACHE is a killer.
I tried WEISEN-U tablets. It says it'll start working in 1/2 hr. But it has been 1, and nothing's happening...except more explosive pounds of pain.

But it's the best one out there right?
It tastes like nothing, but smells like soda crackers!!!
IT's the best smelling medicine around. Perhaps because it's made from Japan...

it's just smells this good..I might even get high from it...

Greetings& stupendous shopping.

Hello!
Jes is back and alive!
With memorial day approaching... does 1 minute of science*, I am ready to take on the horrors of shopping.
I absolutely

loathe

shopping. This is preshopping:

Or...this happens:
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yeahh..not very pleasant.

but wtvr. Shopping mopping. Must brave through the horrors or people and grimy touched clothes...I rather do online shopping from trusted companies. Save me the 5 hrs of spending time in a mall...where I get essentially...2 pieces of clothing by the end of the day.

By shopping online, I also get the comfort and convience. Beat that!



AHHAHAHAHA.
Anything any of you guys want me to post about?
Temporarily accepting topics.
Just want something fresh and kicking.

CD promo party.

***NOTE: I am back and posting. Yes. you must be proud of me. Welcome To The Realm of Healing blog should have a blog release party similar to Purple Silk Music Edu. Foundation's CD release party. ***



Guess what. I was checking http://www.purplesilk.org/, and I found this in Gallery titled CD recording:

L to R: Annennuh, Seeless, Jes(me)

Smack dabbed right there.
humiliating? yes.
and to further my humiliation, I will also attempt to blog on the website.
Why?
if I can blog here, why not there.

and please support Purple Bamboo Silk Music Edu. Foundation by purchasing a CD! The orchestra put forth so much time and energy (not to mention copious amounts of $$) for this project.

If you would like a CD, you may contact the website, or leave a comment in my blog. I promise to have it delivered to you. XD
~jes

Confined in miseries of anguished paradise

I am confined. Confined from paradise.
Think: You have been walking for hours, in drastic need of soothing liquids, and walla, you have found clean, purified water. The only obstacle is, it's behind bars.

Ouch.

I need thirst quencher....

But whatever. let's concentrate on something else.

ok.
Where I am residing.
Summer house.
Alameda.



It's pretty clean; most of the apartments are currently in process of remodeling. That apartment is still in constrution.

I do admit I like this place a lot more then the bustling city of Oakland. Yes, it's super convenient, especially when mom panics for the loss of 2 tablespoons of salt and forces my brother or I to run down to Oakland Supermarket for them. Usually happens around 6:15pm. I doubt it will happen again; It takes at least 30 mins to walk across the dingy Webster tube.

No. that's still not where i'm residing. getting close. =]

Alameda is more like a suburb in comparsion with Oakland; a town compared to SF.

"New York has everything Alameda doesn't." A classmate announced indignantly yesterday. I suppose so. I can't say if that's for better or worse; I'll just let it flow.

Flow until the end of the universe.

Of all Summer House have and have nots, What this place needs are adequate mailboxes.

Those mailboxes are terrible.

1) Hard to open.

2) The key jams everytime it is inserted.

3) I waste at least 15 minutes of my life kicking, jamming, twisting, pulling, and of course, cursing in agony of how dysfunctional boxes can inflict so much mental and physical pain.

And it's not only me that's suffering from Mailbox trauma.

I must say it's a perfect thumb & index finger exersise. Both hands used.

Blah, it's just a mailbox.

A stupid mailbox that we suffer the same twisted finger fate everyday. (Except Sunday of course=])

What can be better then this:

Coming home after a long tiring school day, A.K.A Torturesville?

jes

the resurrection of my dear blog.

I'm fully tired.
there's nothing to do. but sitting in front of the computer, with my eyes half open and the pressing need to use the restroom.

oh well.

At least I have the room cleaned.

GOOD NEWS.
new blog up tonight!
jes

Greetings.

I was buying a SIM card and I've found this:

The LG Chocolate Phone.
This has been released in Asia, mainly in China, Singapore and Korea. It will not be released in the U.S anytime soon.
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Greetings. The blurry picture is not what I would expect, but by far, its one of the best pictures I've had of myself so far.
At Guangzhou Baiyun airport. Stare.

Went to Shang Palace in Shangri La. Overpriced Dim Sum, but very good because it is freshly made and NONgreasy. Think of the fatty fatty oils you see when you consume Siu Mai in SF/Oakland Chinatown. Shang Palace has the same richness in their Siu Mai, minus the grease. Not expecting to visit there for a very long time.

I suppose my phone is dependable when it comes to emergency pictures.

Testing my VGA camera phone. Not bad.

These are ALL Converses. ALL. Sigh. the beauty of them...

jes

phone talk.

My verizon phone.
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I have a new phone.


Getting it tomorrow after the salesman have completed the modifications.
It's not just any phone. I will be using it in China.

For Cingular wireless.
I am still currently using my other Motorola from Verizon wireless until the day I depart. So Verizon users can call that phone. Cingular users can call my other phone.

Ask me for the phone numbers via aim at xkrackhead101x.

My Verizon phone looks u*g*l*y.
jes

update.

no camera,
no updates.
will be updating after i BUY myself another camera.
probably update in china.
that'll be a week away.
jes

an update!

no internet.
no pictures.
probably will have pictures from china.
that'll be a week later readers.
sigh.

My attempt at a pictureblog story.

EHS.
6th period.
Library.
Sally's class and mine just happens to use the library today.
The pictures are not as salacious as they appear to be.
The body parts and expressions are dumbly expressed.
This blog is so hard to write. I don't know how to organize TRUE camera-whore blogs. Maybe it's my lack of experience. Which is afterall, considered a good thing.
T H E S T O R Y - T O L D T H E J E S W A Y.
(fictitious)

David. Trying to explain something very very important. Probably on the elaborating part.

His peers ignore David. All are focused on Leonne (sp?). and the book probably tells better jokes than him.

Hey. listen up. if ya'll don't listen, i'll slap the hell out of you. I'm only saying this ONCE. nicely.

Ok ok. David. I'll listen. snickers*.

David then gives up.

Turns to Gloria. Hey! nice work of art. Since those people ( more snickering) chooses not to listen, I'll talk to you then!

Gloria runs to Jes. I rather camera-whore with Jes instead. haha.

Then Jes goes dumb. Sally and Kai decides to join the fun.

Note sally's hand. Note kai's hand. I can infer they are very excited in camera-whoring with me.( the facial expression on my face is the effect of being the tickled victim. By no means is this an orgasmic feel.)

Ok. maybe They went TOO far. I am being TICKLED here. dears.

I then did my shampoo commercial. Although the hair doesn't look too convincing. My right hand is not touching my shirt nor my skin. Some had said I was trying to strip. NO.
I even did a finger commercial. What am I thinking lah?

My random day.

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Note: I haven't been updating this blog for a while. It is not negligence, but how very little comments I have recieved. I do not blame my readers, for this site is virtually boring to say the least; So I'll get a new template, get a chatterbox, and upload some funky blogs. It will remain as a picture-blog, I find it easier to tell my days with visuals.
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Be warned: This blog is random.

School has been boring. There's not much going on. Considering nice teachers grading assignments while students chatter.

Unfortunetely, that occurred only in the duration of STAR testing. Do note the CD player. Quite intriguing.

Jes has became a philosophe. This is during 3rd period when I didn't feel like using the computers.

I forgot what I was talking of, but dear sally took this.

Amid boredom, at least a photo was taken in rememberance to it. Here's James. In badminton-pose style.

Taken by Kai.

I haven't done self portraits in a while. Maybe because my face is not necessary something someone would look at.

Nonetheless, myself revealed. Sepia style.

Picture taken by ME, the beloved jes.

jes

Asian Branch voluteering.

This blog starts with a cake.





May 13th, 2006. Oakland's Asian Branch Library's 30th Anniversary. Time around 11:00pm.
Sally was suppose to be there, but she has to be SOMEwhere else.

See those balloons? The volunteer/staff workforce did that.

They are:

Kelvin. He's fills up balloons. He looks super happy in this picture. THAT is totally not how he felt though.

But I don't know, he seems too happy for his own good.

The staff members wendie and jun. Wendie was cutting ribbons while jun was helping me wrap the ribbons on the balloon. Nice people. XD

The balloons then gets decorated around the library, then distributed to Children.

The cart to the left is where we worked at. The balloons are put there because there's just space.

About the balloons...

Jane does the job giving it out.

After the balloon work and other prepareness of other stuff, Staff + 2 volunteers gets to chill and eat. I didn't eat with them. They're adults anyway.

I was reading not released magazines and eating spongecake. Lesson: Must stock up on hk fashion.

Bottom half of voluteering.

After the balloon work I get to chill for a bit. So I took random pictures.

Rene. He just posed for me, blurry but still visible.

This is the back door of the library.

This is what I had to do. Stand there and direct people out the back door because the front has been blocked due to kung fu performers.

Like this:

Open the door, then people leave. After that, I go back to this:

Uh huh. same expression.

well, this was an accident. :

I was telling people to come here and ..the picture got taken.

My brother had a job too, walking people outside this door if they need to. It's a long walk, so he has to facillitate in case people get lost. Oh, and he doesnt have the volunteer sign because he left it somewhere.
NOTE our curtious smiles. Really note that.